I do apologize to those who were expecting a post on what happened when I told my wife, that I was an atheist when it came to Christianity but I do apologize I will probably not be posting on that for a while. It is still too soon.
Now today, I have set up a meeting with the pastor of the church. He is an awesome “Man of God,” if I had to describe him. Now just to recap for those who don’t really follow my blog. I am the Youth Leader of a small Church. We are part of the Calvary Chapel movement/denomination. Even though I am the Youth Leader, the church elders and pastor were planning an official ordination next month, so that my official title would be Youth Pastor.
I know in telling the Pastor, there will be complete and utter shock, much like how it was when I told my wife. I know he probably thinks something is up, because I never call to initiate a mid-week meeting with him. I usually just send him and e-mail. And if it’s a somewhat bigger issue, I might call him, or sit down with him after church on Wednesday. (Not on Sunday though, because that’s when everyone is fighting for his attention.)
And this is may be emotionally damaging to him also, because over the last year, the church has lost a lot of its home-school family and members, because he changed the focus of the church from discipleship & family to more outreach & evangelism. And in that happening, -myself and my wife have taken a more visible role in the church. And the youth ministry has been one of the bright spots for the church in these last few dark months. I can see it in the pastors and congregations eye of how the youth ministry is helping to heal and rectify the church back into unity and fellowship.
But after Today, I will no longer be apart of that healing process, I will be the one, people will need healing from. Today, I will tell him know, I am no longer a Christian, I no longer believe in Christianity and I no longer believe in the God of the Bible.