First I would like to say, this is actually a picture of my book shelf. So anybody can see I actually have a bunch of Christian writings and a bunch of bibles on the bottom shelf. I own somewhere around 30 bibles, but about 8-9 are small hand out bibles for when we went door-to-door evangelizing. I am really not sure how I feel about spending so much money on this material.
So far in my de-conversion I’ve told my pastor, my wife, and the elders at the church. I do actually want to tell a few more people, but I can tell my wife is not comfortable with that notion. So I guess I’ll hold off a while, before I spread my wings.
When I told the kids last week, that I was stepping down from leadership, most of them took it well, there were about two or three from the look on their face you can tell were really upset. My heart goes out to them, and will always remember the fun times.
I do still go to church, but only on Sunday Mornings. Kind of like a peace treaty, between Me and the Misses.
Since I have stepped down from all leadership & teaching roles at the church. It is a little different, because the elders who know, it is self-evident they are not completely comfortable talking to me just yet. And likewise on my part too; especially the ones I don’t have as much of a relationship with. However for those who don’t know, it’s generally the same treatment. I have agreed to read Case for Christ by Lee Strobel, which was recommended by one of the elders. I think I will get Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis, because not only did the pastor recommend it, but also many people on the blogosphere have also recommended it too me.
I have started to read Why I became an Atheist? By John Luftus, but that is a very wordy book, so it will take me some time to get through it.
In regards to how my wife is taking everything, I would say it is still a work in process. She still prays for me and prays that become saved and a believer.