For those who know me I typically don’t blog too much on personal matters, and that’s really just my temperament. And thats also how I deal with people in the real world. However this is something I feel like venting about.
That it’s the little things in our life & relationship, that really show how much we have grown apart at times. And like any relationship or marriage, we have our ups and our downs. However, the ups are just not as frequent or as enjoyable as they use to be. And it’s not just that there are more downs than ups. It’s that the high moments of joy that were used to repair those down moments in our relationship are not getting it done like they use to.
Most Sundays I still go to church with my wife, but every once a while i stay home, cause I need a break from the non-sense of religion. Of course it bothers her, because she never thought she would be one of those women that would come to church on Sundays, while their unbelieving husband stays home. So this is a hard life transition for her as well as me.
About two years ago, My wife bought me a key chain for Father’s day, On the key chain was a scripture that she knew I loved, “As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.” (Joshua 24:15) So much so that I even had it painted on the wall for a while in one of the back bedrooms when we first moved into our house. She knew it was one of my favorite scriptures, and one that stood on. A few days ago I took that piece off my key chain, and my wife found it lying around the house. And when she found it, I can tell she was very upset. She didn’t yell or scream. She was just upset in silence.
I could go and on about the little things affect the day-to-days of our relationship, (I.E.: The Issues of watching T.V., Respect, Home-Schooling, Our friends that are more now her friends) But really out of all the little things, it’s the gapping whole of the #1 thing we both loved and had in common and now lost…..