Three weeks ago, the wife and I were running Very late to church, so she suggested we go visit another church that was closer and I knew the pastor who was over it, because I use to attend church with him 6 years ago before he got his own church. And I got so mentally distraught at the thought of going to visit his church, because he is extremely charismatic. (Speaking in Tongues, Prophesying, Screaming, Shouting, Laying Hands on people.) Just the thought of going into that environment got me sweating, heart-racing and unnerved.
This past week when my wife and I were talking about which Church to visit for Easter. (Because it has been part of our tradition for the last few years to go visit another church on Easter.) I told her my feelings on going to church and how much times it had really stressed me out. Just the thought of going to church on Sundays sometimes gets my nerves going, and my heart racing. It really does affect my psychological and mental health at times. Which is a far stretch from a year ago, when going to church on Wednesday and Sundays were a stress reliever for me and such a relaxing event. But those days are no longer.
So When I came across this post on the Belief in People Blog, it really warmed my spirits, because it was a post I could truly relate to, because ever since I have been on the outside of Christianity, I feel like an intruder/enemy to the all Christian Sunday club.