Okay I confess that this is a cheesy Blog title, but I needed something.
I actually turned 30 about five months ago, back in July. I actually wanted to do an update post about my life back in July, but I was very busy with work. During this past summer, I was a candidate for a Supervisor Position at my job. And because of that, I was involved in several projects at my job, that caused me to stay late after work several days. And the days I got home on time, I was mentally and emotionally exhausted. So this blog was an afterthought. (And after all that, I still did not get the position. They gave it to some person who came from outside the company. A few people were pissed about that.) And because I work in Medicare in Insurance. We are extremely busy from September to the First week of December. In fact just the other week I worked an 80 hour work week.
BitterSweet Updates and Muses
It has been nearly a year and a half since I told my wife, the Pastor, and stepped down from my position in the Youth Ministry. And as for me and Mrs. BittersweetEnd (A.K.A. formerly Mrs Biblereader), we are doing well. Alot better. Time does heal. We really don’t talk much about religion or God that much. And when we do, it is usually very superficial……“How was Church?”……………”Good”…….”The Pastor talked about 1st Corinthians and love”……..”And how was that?”………………”It was Good, he likes to use football analogies alot to describe things. And half the women at the church have no clue what he means when he does that.”…………..”Well that sounds good.”
We really try to avoid more spiritually deep topics that could turn into arguments where we end up stepping onto each others ego. We no longer still attend the same church anymore. In fact, I no longer attend church at all. However I still will attend if it is at special request of my wife. For example they had something called ADAM Sunday, where everybody invites a Man to church. The wife asked me and her uncle to attend. So I went. We don’t argue about church or religion anymore. And my son who is 4 years old. Really enjoys church. He is constantly asking to go back to church. (Probably because all he really does at church is play.) I don’t mind; it doesn’t bother me. As long as he is a happy 4 year old, that is all I care about.
What I have discovered about myself since I no longer go to church and free from the nonsense of church. Is that I still really like listening to christian and gospel music. And will still listen to it on occasion, because I find it extremely relaxing and soothing. I think that is something my wife still really enjoys about me, knowing that if each decides to put on some christian music during the day; that she can play it loud and I won’t mind and will probably enjoy the music myself and sing along.
I also enjoy reading non-fiction alot, which is something I have never done. I have read the hunger games trilogy, ender’s game, divergent and several other sci-fi and young adult books. Next on my list is the hobbit.
I have several other religious/atheist topic books on my bookshelf, that I still have not read such as the God Delusion by Richard Dawkins and Forgery by Bart Ehrman, but the truth is that at times, I feel like it is a waste of energy putting so much effort into God that does not exist. I’m sure one day I will get around to these books and eventually do a post book review. But until then I rather read something that entertains me, not educate me.
Through this last year, I have learned to smile more, enjoy life more, and laugh more. And I hope everyone can have that same feeling of joy and peace in their mind. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!!
I shall finish this post with one final parting thought that is not my own, but I in my opinion I consider it to be an invaluable piece of advice.