If you are here, then you probably already either through me directly or someone else, that I am no longer a believing christian.
Let me tell you about my journey. And this is not to defend my position, but to shed some light and explain where I have traveled emotionally.
In the Summer of 2011, I came across a two scriptures Matthew 17:10- 13 & John 1:19-23 that appeared to me in contradiction. In Matthew Jesus makes the assertion that the Prophecy of the Spirit of Elijah returning has been fulfilled and that the Elijah has returned. It says to the disciples ‘But I tell you, Elijah has already come…Then the disciples understood that he was talking to them about John the Baptist.’ However in John, when the Jewish Leaders approached John the Baptist if he was the Elijah, not only did he deny he was the spirit of Elijah. But he furthermore denied if he was a prophet.
So in coming to this bible difficulty, I could not reconcile the scriptural difficulty in my own mind, so I decided to create a blog and blog about it. Now even though I did not find an answer in blogging about it. It did calm my nerves and skepticism.
However I cam across another bible difficulty that reflected more of an absurdity.
It was 2 Samuel 21:1-10. It was a story of King David and how his country was in a famine. So in the context of the story King David goes to God about a famine in the land. God says it is because of King Saul he has famine. So David makes a deal that seven of Saul’s grandsons shall be sacrificed before the LORD to atone for the famine. Not only did God and David choose the seven descendants of Saul, but King David is married to one of Saul’s daughters. So he isn’t just allowing any random stranger to be killed. He is allowing his own family to be slaughtered. This story was beyond my comprehension, on why would God allow such a thing to innocents.
Now this began to open up a whole new world of questions and doubts that I felt were never truly answered, so I scratched that skepticism bug and this is what I found.
- That the Gospels are not considered eyewitness accounts.
- That there are several major gaps in the first couple chapters in Genesis and Creation.
- The Contradictory Genealogy of Jesus in Matthew vs. Luke.
And this is too just name a few. There are several websites documenting up to 1001 Bible Contradictions. Now I know some people are saying, there is perfectly rational explanations for these bible difficulties. And there are some good and sufficient explanations for some of them, but not all.
Little did I know, that others were also reading my articles, and there were others who shared my same skepticism. But for them, it wasn’t just skepticism, it was atheism.
After reading and evaluating more of the bible, I came to the point, that I could no longer consider the bible as God’s Inerrant Authority on earth. And with losing my inerrant guide-book, I also lost my belief in an inerrant bible. I could no longer justify my faith by the bible, for it was too flawed and inconsistent for me to take serious. And in giving up biblical authority, I also had to give up my Christianity.
In all of this, I do apologize beforehand if I have hurt you. And I know this changes everything. But I felt it was truly time to evaluate my faith, without restriction, without hesitation and without reservation, and just follow the evidence where ever it may led. And it has led me away from the Christian bible. If you too would like to evaluate your Christianity, I am here if you have questions.